Happy New Year!

I'm excited about today. I had a pretty good new years eve and I have alot of hopes for this year. I feel like 2013 is going to be a great year for me. I know this is going to sound extremely juvenile, but 3 has always been a lucky number for me. In fact I use the number 33 as a tag to almost all my usernames and passwords.....idk theres just something that feels really lucky about that number. Plus you know how they says third times a charm. Well, I've been trying to get this weight loss, fitness, and love stuff figured out for the past 3 years. Maybe this is my year. I will say this. Last night I was taking all sorts of pictures and I was kind of shocked. You know how people with ED's can't see them selves properly in real life. Sometimes it takes a picture to knock sense into them. Well I realized last night that I'm reallllly thin. Like thin enough. Like my face looks gaunt. I look so thin and pale....not really healthy. Sure the flash of the camera in club lighting didn't help my ghost like appearance, but this year I'm focusing on being a healthy, fit, and natural me. I want to put good foods into my body and eat the way God intended. It's going to be hard, but I've got to give up all this bad stuff I constantly consume. I've got to give up Splenda. In other news....my best friend has an opportunity to go to LA this February and work on modeling/commercial stuff. He just keeps saying that he's wanting to stay out there when he goes. Now I know he's likely not going to be able to afford to stay out there immediately, but it also made me realize that if he leaves me....I have no one. I need to broaden my horizons and put myself out there. I need to stop being so afraid to get involved with new different people. I can't depend on one friend to hold me over. I just have alot to think about over the next year. Alot of plans to make and so forth. I'm excited about all the opportunities and exciting prospects this year might bring. I'm at a good place right now....So 2013....Here I come. ; )