Moving On

Things have been looking up. I’m currently 161 and should be 160 by tomorrow the way things seem to be moving. I’ve decided that losing 3lbs a week is the way to go. I don’t want to feel like I’m dying every day. And really it’s just not possible given my current work load etc. Also I feel like even when I was doing 100 calories and “losing” 1lb a day… It wasn’t even truly 1lb a day. It was more like 5lbs a week because there were always slow times or delays for whatever bodily reason. I feel like 3lbs is the best way to ensure I’m actually losing fat and not all my muscle. Also, I think I mentioned this last time but I quit atkins. Technically I’m still doing only around 30 carbs a day and I have significantly reduced my calories to around 500-700 from 1100-1200 I was doing on atkins. Honestly, I think this has been far more effective because I quickly dropped 2 pounds as soon as I switched off more calories. I’m started to really notice the weight loss too. I know that sounds stupid seeing as I’ve only lost around 5- 7 pounds, but my stomach is much flatter and I feel like I’m started to be able to see some resemblance to my old figure. I can’t imagine how I will feel once I get back in the 140’s. I can’t wait to be able to put on that infamous miniskirt I used to wear everywhere. I found a video of me this week that was really surprising. It’s of me in the summer of 2014 wearing a tank top and these itty bitty Hollister shorts. I was sooo thin. Literally like a rail. I know I was around 125ish there. I can’t wait to be there again. Actually I’ve been thinking about how I want to dress once I get my figure back. I can’t wait to wear oversized turtleneck sweaters and tight little hot pants. I feel like that is the quintessential waif outfit. And boots that emphasize your thin leg. I’ve created a weight loss calculator. If I stick to losing 3lbs a week than I will be 128lbs by the time I go to this big holiday party around Halloween. Additionally, I was panicking last week because I thought my friend that knows me at my thinnest was coming to visit in a few weeks. I was so panicked about slimming down extremely fast in order to look “more normal” when he came. Last night he informed me that’s he’s not coming till October. That gives me a little over a month to drop some weight. I should be able to lose just under 20lbs in that time…. More if I really start working out. If I could hit the high 130’s by the time he comes I will look pretty decent…. Not my thinnest, but normal. I should be able to fit into all my clothes at that weight too…. Well the majority anyway. Just for good record keeping sake – Below is what I’ve been typically eating: Breakfast: Low carb wrap – 60cal Vegan hotdog – 50 Greek yogurt ranch – 25 Total:135 Lunch: Two boiled eggs – 120 Dinner: Breakfast x2 - 240 Or Steamed broccoli with Greek Yogurt Ranch or Low fat guac - 150