My Mom is Ana

Today I was so sick from starving that I started throwing up....After talking to my Mom about the fact I wasn't losing weight despite my best efforts she started doing that babying stuff where she talks to me like I'm on some kind of modest diet of 1500 calories or something. That infuriates me because she KNOWS all I eat is toast most days ANDDD she knows that she starves on 1200 and complains....yet she says stuff to me when I eat like 1200 a week?!

So I challenged her to eat only what I eat for a day and at first she agreed and then backed out after she had a chance to think about how hard it would be. Then she had the nerve to give a speech about how she used to starve as hard or harder than me when she was young! Puleazzzz....First of all....I've been doing this like 2 months which is longer then any of her crash diets I'm sure....AND her bragging number was 800 calories!!!!!!! In all honesty I can't remember the last time I had 800 calories....that was a veryyyyyyy long time ago for sure....very long ago. Well the whole conversation was insulting...she essentially implied that my diet was nothing compared to how hard she had dieted in the past ...also that I needed to try harder and thats why I wasn't losing.

I'm not talking to her about this again. Thats definitely the end of my diet talk....this is also a sign that I really do need to start purging. If what I am eating is whats holding me back then I need to eat NOTHING ...and since I can't take that....then I need to purge it up. If anyone could help me with tips or anything it would be much appreciated.

I really need a support system right now.....really.