Here's the secret to being thin...

Over the past few years I've been on pretty much one continuous diet that has seen me fluctuate in weight quite a bit. I mean overall I lost about 80-90lbs and landed at 140, but I would fluctuate up and down from there all the time over the past 2 years. The highest I've been since then is 147 and the lowest being 134.....until recently when I started maintaining this 129/130 weight. So overall I have quite a bit of experience with what works for me and what doesn't. Here's the thing....I always tend to get obsessive. When I originally wanted to start losing weight I started eating around 500 calories...give or take a few. I tried to stay in a 300-600 calorie range and I did really well with my diet. I was losing around 15-20 lbs a month and I was pretty satisfied with my cravings too. A few months in I got a little carried away and thats when the 100 calorie days started. Then I started feeling like anything over that was insane. I would always drop a pound a day doing that, but it was draining and exhausting and mentally I would start to lose it a bit. Then I would have some out of control binge that would result in me gaining back half of what I'd lost and so yea.... It was effective, but not necessarily more so than the moderate starvation that just had slower steady results. The thing is....sometimes it's hard to stay motivated at 500 calories when you're not seeing daily weight loss. Okay so all ED people know where the good diet shows are on youtube. We've pretty much all made a sport of watching the diet programs such as "Super Slim Me", "Super Skinny Me", and movies like "For the Love of Nancy" ....well one such favourite of mine is Supersize VS Superskinny. I love seeing what the intake is of someone so small and work on emulating it. One thing that I've realized is that those people just don't really care about food. They eat it because they must, but they aren't thinking 24/7 about cravings and calories. They eat very little and they care very little.....and somehow in the end they become very little. That's the trick....stop caring like that. Food is something I must consume, but I have to train myself to feel disconnected from it emotionally. It's simply a boring part of everyday life. I've started thinking with this mentality. I'm trying to exercise a moderate and enjoyable amount....and I'm eating exactly how I please. Overall I've been consuming around 500 calories a day, but I've felt satisfied and I know that if I adopt this lifestyle....in a couple months I'll be 110-115, but I'll be happy and I'll be able to maintain it. Binging is a thing of the past...Binging is for out of control people....Moderation is for sensible people and starving is for dead people. I'm 129 today and my weight is not where I'd like it to be....but I'm not stressing. I'm on the right track and that's what matters.