Low in the Worst Way

Today was not a great day. I weighed in at 154 - which is great. A coworker also told me I looked really skinny - without knowing about my diet - also good. But whenever I start starving like this, it's not long before I'm pretty depressed. I just feel mentally and physically exhausted. Getting up the stairs today felt like too much. I just neeeed to get the next 14lbs off and then I can be more reasonable. I know this means at least a month more of 200 calorie days. I managed to stay at 200 calories again today ... I think I'm satisfied right now hunger wise. I mean if you told me I could eat a pizza with no consequence right now - I would Hoover it, but all things considered I actually enjoy my "safe" foods. I was just discouraged because when I got home tonight I weighed myself and my stomach looked bloated. I weighed in at 155. I obviously know that's not true considering I hadn't eaten in over 12 hrs at this time, but it's just annoying. I neeeed scale validation. When you starving yourself, feeling faint all day, and weak AF... You need something to keep you going. I mean my hands were blue today. I'm sure from decreased blow flow due to starvation. I better see 153 tomorrow but I fear that I won't. Clearly I'm holding some water weight and need to shift some things. Worst of all my face is really broken out and idk why. It's surely not from carbs and sugar. I'm just going to pray I see some progress in the morning. Night.