189: Two in one

8/15

I’m in disbelief. I woke up after having not eaten since 1pm yesterday and I have STAYED THE SAME! 190. I guzzled water yesterday in an attempt to flush my system. I think drank probably 100oz?? Somehow I woke up feeling swollen. I ate so little sodium so I don’t know how that’s possible. 

The only thing I can possibly think of is that my period is around the corner.

8/16

So I ended up doing pretty intense workout all things considered. I ran a 13min mile.... pathetic but I made it. I then walked for about 45 min. My Fitbit calculated it as burning in total around 600 calories. I felt weak but fine. It was at this point I finally hit 189, but I felt okay and genuinely started considering going for a 48 hour fast. In any case I laid down to rest for a bit.

Out of nowhere around 1:30 I started profusely sweating for now reason. I was actually somewhat cold, but just dripppppping sweat. My heart was racing and I just got very weak very fast. I hurried and made food. It started to help immediately, but it took hours to feel normal. Yesterday I focused more on low carb than I have been.

2 burgers: 290

Lettuce: 10

Tomato: 16 

Mayo: 45

Cheese: 80

Broccoli: 60

Sauce: 50

Dressing: 35

Jello: 40

Total: 626

I focused on the protein and will continue to do so because my hair fell out in the past due to a vegetarian diet and restrictive diets in general on top of that. So I’ve been eating meat since last October trying to raise my ferritin levels. It has worked, but I need to keep pushing. 

One last thing: in the past I think what’s eventually broke me was 100 calories a day. While I eventually did hit 125 lbs it was never through 100 calories a day. I appreciate that 100 sped up my progress, but it ultimately hurt me a lot. This time I want to focus on something manageable that I could maintain indefinitely. So I’m trying to avoid approaching this from the “all or nothing” mindset. It’s hard for me to do.