Miracles happen!

 Miracles happen

I hit 182 today. It feels unreal. I remember a couple days ago writing 183 would be impossible. I am very much back into the swing of things after derailing last weekend. It helped that I finally used the restroom for the first time in days. Also I completed an hour long workout burning well over 500 calories. 

I just have to keep things up and stay motivated. Motivation is going to be the hardest part right now. I’ve never done a great job of documenting weight loss in pictures because when I’ve been bigger I’ve always been too ashamed. I’m forcing myself to document this time. I think it’s important to really SEE yourself and not just the “good stuff” you’ve accomplished. It helps ground you in reality and keep from allowing yourself cheats or outs. 

I took photos today for the first time in maybe 2.5 weeks. It was kind of depressing how little change has actually occurred because I was starting to feel really changed. 

If I can continue to lose .5lbs a day I could be 169 by then end of September. The sixties always feel really “safe”. I can’t believe I’m about to get back to the 70’s!! This coming week!

I’ve given myself a really hard time about being the weight I currently am. Even in my mind I thought this was the most dramatic gain ever. It was for recent history but not in my life overall. Additionally, I looked through a number of medical records and I’ve weighed in at 180-something more than not. 

So that tells me - I just have a different mindset at this point and I need to just stay strong and embrace what’s ahead. I can do this.