Confession

I hate to lie, but apparently I have. I couldn't do the water and grape diet! I woke up this morning feeling ROUGHHHH. I was actually fearful that I could pass out (which I am pretty much just waiting for....because it's coming I know) and that would be really inconvenient because of how hectic my schedule is right now. I'm taking 21 credits and working about 20 hours a week and I live an hour from school and work and both are in opposite directions...so basically I just run all day. Anyways so I just knew I didn't have the strength. I find that as long as I get one decent "meal" in I can go pretty strong the whole day....which is great! So all I ate today was this potatoe and bean "Steamer" which was 200 calories! I feel proud....because according to the ABC diet I am still following since the grape thing fell through...I came 100 calories under the plan! Holla! = )

Anyways I had a very BADDDDDD day and I was near tears this evening frustrated with school and weight loss(the lack of...despite all my efforts). So I was having a rant about everything to my mom and in the midst of it I decided to go weigh myself and to my surprise I weighed 173!!! I can't say thats anything official because I didn't weigh myself at my regular weigh in time(morning), but I was so proud to see that number considering that I was able to break the 174 barrier thats been holding me up for OVER a week now!!!!

That one pound changed my life haha Really though that was so motivating!! Even the tiniest weight loss can motivate to new levels!

One thing that really helped me today was drinking tea all day and I can tell that will realllllllly help during fasting days. It just makes me feel so full....unlike plain water which sometimes makes me feel emptier for some reason.

I am 9 pounds from a healthy weight....I guess I could be a little happy at 164 knowing that everything I lose from there is kind of like "gravy"...for lack of a better word.

Ohhh I did want to recommend something...Almond Milk! I've been a vegetarian for years now and just this year I've been trying to work myself into being vegan, but its been pretty hard because of my love of dairy. Anyways not only is almond milk reallly good...much better then soy milk, but it has sooo few calories. Just 60 calories for a cup. I never have a full cup, but anyways...just thought I'd share that.

Lastly...It would really be nice to have a "buddy" I could text about the usual Ana stuff no one else gets. I think it would be really fun and motivating = )