Morning jump start

I weigh 142 this morning. At a 1lb daily loss from this point I could potentially still hit my 130 goal by the end of the month! Now I will say that I highly DOUBT that happens because my will power probably isn't strong enough for that nor could I sustain 1lb loss every single day for almost 2 more weeks. At some point my metabolism always crashes on this diet, buttttt all that being said. I could weigh 135 in a week and that would totally be do-able. I don't know ...we'll see. I know the last 2 times I've hit a goal mark like 150 or 140 it's been through an extreme boost in motivation based off a crazy goal and my 100 calorie diet. So maybe it's not that ludicrous that I hit 130.

We'll see....if I can even get myself out of the 140's once and for all then I'll start thinking about my strategies for the rest.

I think my motivation for this diet this time stems from how upsetting it was to hit 147. I think it was a wake up call that I HAVE to take this seriously. Because before I had gone up and down between 140 and 144 and seeing those numbers didnt shock me into action, but seeing 147 literally scared the crap out of me.

I will say I HATEEEEEE forced dieting....like dieting when it's because you have to get actual fat off and not "I just want to hit a new goal!" dieting. Idk if that makes sense, but before I had always been dieting to new low weights and the past couple months everytime I've been starving it's been to take off the same few pounds I keep putting on. It makes it not exciting to look at the scale and it makes it very weary-ing(haha thats not a word but I'll use it)

Today I plan on eating:

Toast: 100
Vegan link: 50 (because I need the protein)
Jello: 30
=180 calories

We'll see how it goes, but in reality thats all I think I'll eat.

I may post again today simply because it helps me stay motivated. :/