Struggle

Okay so I followed my diet exactly like I had planned for today. I also worked which burned some calories I'm sure. Hopefully I'll see 138 tomorrow...I feel like I won't for some ridiculous unknown reason...I guess its because I never have before. I just keep feeling like this won't happen and that's a bad mindset to be in because if you don't believe it will happen then it won't.

I've just got to keep on trucking along with this diet and staying focused and I'll hit my dream weight and more.

My work has mirrors EVERYWHERE...of course because its a retail store...well anyways I always get depressed at work because I have to keep looking at myself in mirrors and feeling fat.

Another reason I've got to lose weight is because the last time so many people at work saw me I was juggling the same few pounds I've been running between(low 140's)....well anyways the next time I work is next Saturday and I want to blow people away with how much more thin I've gotten. I want people to take me seriously with this weight loss because no one will take you seriously when you are not losing weight...obviously. So I havvvvvvve to stay on diet this week. I've made it this many days then I can certainly make it a few more...I just worry that my metabolism won't agree. I guess I should step up my working out in order to compensate for how much it wants to slow down.

Well I'm off...I pray I hit 138 tomorrow....PRAY.