24 brussel sprouts - 200
3 peices of toast - 200
potato - 300
Grapes - 100
Almonds - 200
5 vegan hotdogs - 250
Chips - 100
Bites of this and that - 150
= 1500
Okay so thats about what a normal person eats in a day....I will say that apparently I must be doing something right because it felt like I ate 2984789374897328947 calories in my mind. As a result of this binge I took about 25 laxatives over the course of the day. Also let me add that I did not eat all these foods at one time. I ate them throughout the day.
I think this all came from stress, feeling really disoriented because my Mom was finally home after nearly a month and she kept pressuring me to eat, also I think the pressure of 100 calorie days just kind of came to a head.
Anyways the good news is that I got rid of most of what I ate yesterday and I'm still getting rid of it. I weighed in at 151 today, but I think it's just because I haven't completely cleared out yet.
Also! I woke up feeling super motivated about a 100 calorie day. I think it was almost good to get that binge out of my system. I mean trust me...I wish I would have only had a 100 calorie day, but this just makes me soooooo much more motivated to do better and I can't wait to lose the next 40 pounds!
This is kind of just like the binge that marked the midway point.
Anyways thats what happened. Yes, I'm embarrassed and sad that i let it happen, but it doesn't change the fact that I am back on my game today.
I think the scariest thing is that this is the first time this has happened in 4 months...and I put so much faith in myself over the fact that I had never tripped up, but now I did....so could it happen again???? this could go two ways.... 1. I could keep stumbling because it happened the once ...or 2. I could never let this happen again and do even better from now on because I'm so afraid of slipping into the mindset that failed me yesterday.
I think I'm going with #2.
Well thats that.
= )
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