Today was incredibly hard. I had to work on my online class all day. I wrote for 9 discussion questions and took 6 tests. In the past I've been inclined to binge eat in order to avoid stuff like this so it was an especially tough day in that sense. I did manage to stick to 100 calories though by only eating my morning toast. I was so nauseous all day though and just emotionally and physically weak tonight.
The good news is that I hit 149. = )
Here is the key to sticking to my diet....Thinspo.......Thinspo. Thinspo. Thinspo.
I literally looked through 60 pages of it today. If I don't spend at least several hours looking at it each day I start to lose focus or forget what I truly want. It doesn't matter what or where I look at it I just have to overwhelm myself with super skinny looking people and slowly I feel excited that I will look like that one day.
Well tomorrow I work and I'm so relieved ...I couldn't bare this sitting around the house, thinking about food routine one more day.
I have created a goal though!
I found out I don't see my bulimic friend till the weekend of the 12-14. That's two weeks....and the little things like this make me feel like creating a challenge = ) I know he's one of my only friends rooting for my weightloss so I want to surprise him by being much thinner when I see him. I'm going to try and be 140 by then! I know I can do it now that my diet is back in swing.
So lets says....the new goal is 140 by the 12th!
On that note...= )
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