Today was horrible. I feel HORRIBLE from all this fasting...like my body is just wornnn out. So anyways I decided to eat something a little different then my usual two pieces of toast. I instead had this:
6 brussel sprouts: 50 cal.
1 piece of toast: 50
1 vegan hot dog: 50
= 150
Well I went a little over but I felt so weak I thought I needed it. So I went to work and had an annoying day filled with creepy boys and stupid customers. I was in slight pain all day in my throat, chest, and back region, but i didn't think tooo much of it because I tend to stay in pain these days.
Well when I got home I felt absolutley wasted and figured I would weigh less. No I actually weighed 152....Thats when it hit me. This weight is barely coming off because *GRAPHIC WARNING* ....I barely ever "use" the bathroom these days. Gross I know, but anyways...I knew I needed to rethink my dieting strategy for the day. So I took 10 laxatives and ate the following to help the stuff along:
Brussel sprouts: 100
Vegan hotdog: 50
= 150
Okay so you're probably wondering why I ate...well I don't know if I'm just not an experienced enough laxative taker, but the never seem to truly take effect unless I eat when I take them. So that's why. Last time I took them I just drank water in order to get them going and I got bad cramps but never had a bowel movement.
So anyways...I feel really upset about my calories, but I'll do better tomorrow. I promise!
About the "PAINNNNNNNNN!!!!!!" ...basically that whole throat, chest, back pain I was having escalated after eating and I am in mind numbing pain right now. If anyone has any idea why someone might this kind of pain please let me know. It hurts to breathe...it hurts to swallow...to talk....to move.
I don't know if I'll be 150 by tomorrow. I imagine not, but then again who knows...these laxatives could work wonders.
Oh well.....I'm going to bed and praying this pain goes away. It's ridiculous
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