Down, Down, Down...

I'm so depressed. I don't know whats overwhelming me so much, but I just feel like nobody likes me and everyone is against me. I can't seem to lose any weight... I'm starting to feel like giving up. Tonight I jokingly poked my sister's butt and I brought up this time that she and my other sister had done that to me and they found it funny how jiggly mine was. Well she felt it and her and my Mom both laughed hysterically at basically was a fat ass I have. I just want to disappear. I'm miserable. Miserable with my body.... miserable with my loneliness... miserable with my job... miserable with my pay. I just feel like there is nothing out there for me anymore. I'm single. I have been for years. I feel like my friends don't even like me that much... what few friends I do have. I feel like I give 150% at work and I get nothing but admonishment about how I could have done better. I'm just so tired of dealing with everything and everyone. I'm so tired of trying to be perfect and constantly not reaching perfection. I'm so tired.